Tuesday-
I witnessed the coolest blessing ever. My companion got a blessing from one of our Elders and it was so special. He didn't know what was going on with her but he said exactly what she needed to hear. That's not a coincidence but a surety that we do have a God who knows us perfectly and speaks to us through the holy ghost. That night the sisters in my room talked about experiences with God. I had a lot to say. Never can I or will I deny the truthfulness of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter day saints. This is the lord's church. I was promised I would see many miracles in my life and I know that will be so. I already have.
Faith has a short shelf life. It takes work. Shake the dust off.
Wednesday -
I had cereal and salad for lunch, a bummer. I was starting to feel so sick half way through the day. I was nauseated and dizzy for hours. I am assuming it was from anxiety about leaving the next day. I asked Elder Hall for a blessing. The moment he put his hands on my head my stomach pain and nausea went away, I was no longer dizzy and felt completely calm. It was a tender mercy. My dad always gives me blessings before school or big steps in life but we forgot to do one before I left for the mtc. It was so tender to receive one from the Elder in my district. It was the first blessing of comfort I have received that hasn't come from my dad. The things that were said were so special and I knew it was coming from God. At the end Elder Hall explained he had no idea what he was saying it was not his own words and I know that to be true. I said goodbye to my district, well more like see you later. I have so much love for them all. I will be seeing them again I know it.
Thursday September 14
I woke up at 3:20 to get dressed and head out. I struggled with my luggage. We loaded a bus, then a front runner, then another smaller train thingy. The last train was the worst. We were in the way with nowhere to put our luggage and this guy was not being very nice. I made it to the airport and my dad was there. He was flying out an hour after me. It was a tender mercy to have him there. My heart is so full and I feel as ready as I can to go out and serve. I am confident that the lord is with me and all is possible with him. Fear not doubt not. Me and my companion did not get to sit together on the first flight but on the second a guy switched seats with her. Its getting real real. About 5 I realized I wanted to be back home. Everyone knew each other and no one talked to me and my companion. We only had each other. The mission president was nice but said about two words to me. We were talked at for hours and then brought to a hotel at 10:20. We're supposed to be in bed at 10:30 but still had to shower and get ready for bed. We are running on 4 hours of sleep and have to get up tomorrow at 6:30. We didn't lay down until 11:30 . I do not feel capable today of doing this. Positive side, the hotel was nice. I read Ether 12 and started to feel a little better and then I wrote my testimony down and left it with the hotel Book of Mormon
Friday September 15th
Literally wanted to vomit all morning.
When it came time to get our trainers/ new companion,I was looking around and noticed one sister/ trainer that just looked terrified. I immediately hoped and prayed she wouldn't be mine. Fast forward that scared new trainer is mine. I had tears I had been praying for a trainer that would be outgoing and not new to this. This sister has only been out for a few months and has never trained before. She is quiet and shy. All the other new sisters were getting talked to and hugged and my trainer was not doing that for me. We couldn't be more opposite. I am honestly discouraged and frightened but I carry on. The day was overwhelming. My apartment constantly smells of weed and we cant drink the water, it has to be filtered.I had to carry my heavy luggage up a flight and a half ot stairs and about died. Then I had to carry my bike up by myself. My trainer has been in this area her whole mission so far. Oh I'm in the Kirtland zone. The town is Solon. People say it's a blessed land but she has only been teaching three people the last couple of months.The plus side is the members feed us like three times a week. Oh today I had almost nothing to eat. So on top of being tired I'm starving. The lord always provides though so I will survive. I trust in the lord and know things will be okay. Today was rough, scary, and discouraging but I have hope for tomorrow.
Saturday September 16
I'm so confused. We prepped for a lesson today and I wanted to teach and expound on things and my trainer is all about only teaching the bolded words in preach my gospel not the dots underneath. If you have no idea what this is its basically like teaching God is our father who loves us, we have prophets, we believe in christ. Simple short ended statements with no explanation. Whereas I want to teach all the points with explanation and testifying between sections and clarifying questions. This feels like half effort to me. Its the first day so maybe I am the one that doesn't know what she's saying.
She also doesn't believe in reading a few verses and then asking questions or explaining she just reads the whole chapter. All new things. I feel like no one prepared me for this lol.
So I taught today like I actually had something to add and I did not follow the bolded words I shared what I felt was needed. I taught Justin, Kenny, and Keith today. All very nice, all struggling. We visited a member who broke her leg. Got turned down a few times, had unanswered doors, and a member meal. Which was so good and she was so kind and sent us home with some gluten free food. Which is a blessing because we had no food for tomorrow because shopping didn't get done before I arrived. I've been living off crumbs which may be playing a part in my excessive tiredness. Our area is what they call the slow area but other areas they are teaching 30 lessons a day. At the end of the day we share how many we taught, how many members participated in lessons, and some other things I can't remember.
Sunday September 17th
I spoke today in sacrament not real sure what I said but people said thank you and that they needed to hear it. Definitely wasn't my own words the lord was speaking. We had a member meal and lesson that was very awkward. We then visited a guy who believes and wants to get baptized but has to be able to commit to following the Word of Wisdom.
We went to visit a self referral and they didn't open the door. We get fed a lot by the members in this area so that's really nice.
You can't appreciate the good times if you don't have bad times
The lord promises all things will work together for your good
No matter what I trust in the lord. I love him and I know he's aware of me
I have been struggling a lot but hearing from my family and from my bishop at home has been such a tender mercy. God is good
Saying goodbye to her district at the MTC and good friends!
Mission President and wife.
She left her testimony in the drawer with the Book Of Mormon at the hotel they stayed in the first night of arrival.
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